Wednesday, October 31, 2007 Y
Can you choose whether or not to love someone?
The boy was too silly,sacrifice so much for the one he love.....
If There is someone by ur side that is like this..remember to cherish him..
In The Girl Memory , there is such a person..
Okay......here is how the story goes..
"The person i like is infront of me!"the boy said loudly as he pointed to the girl walking infront of him.
"Crazy"the girl said .....as she walk through the crowd which was there to see what was happening...she thought the boy was kidding...until one day she receive a letter..
The Letter was as followed "I really like you!I can do anything you wish".one letter,without any name,just a few short setences,but the girl know it was the boy who wrote it.
"Can you jump into the middle of the road??" the girl wrote behind the letter and ask someone to pass it to the boy..
"I can!You watch." the boy saw what the girl wrote, and rush into the middle of the road infront of the girl..
Only to hear a few horns and the sliding of the car brake and a huge bang...the girl rush quickly to the boy who was in a pool of blood..
"I can really do anything for you...."the boy said with a weak voice atin the hospital,but the girl heard clearly what he said...
"It was your daughter that make our son rush into the road!
"Bullshit!It was your son that ran in himself!"
"What you mean by bullshit?His classmate also heard it,our son saw the letter from ur daughter than rush in!"
"Is it true?"The girl's mother turn back and look at her daughter..
The girl nodded her head,tears was dropping from her face onto the letter the boy wrote for her..
"Our son life is now destroyed!He can no longer play basketball......The boy's mother scream while kneeling on the hospital floor crying....
"......"The girls parent kept silent...
"I wan ur daughter to stay by my son side , until he do not need her,that is what ur daughter owe us!"The boy father said...
"No! she dont love your son!You cannot be so selfish!"the girl's mother cant bear to let her daughter take this cruel punishment..
"Okay....I will stay by him.",the girl agreed ...
----------------------------------Two Years later--------------------------
At the garden seat, the boy and the girl sat quietly,the soothing wind blew on their face.
"Why did you like me?"The girl suddenly asked.
"Can we choose who to like or who to love?I Just like someone,I Just fall in love,thats it..i cant choose"the boy replied slowly..
"If one day , i like someone will you let me go??"the girl asked.
"I have never ever tied you down , it is yourself that didnt let yourself go"
Suddenly there was silence,only rustle of the leaves could be heard..
The boy was right , two years ago after he wake up , he cancelled the agreement,but the girl decided to stay by the boy side.She was guilt,just because of one setence she wrote,spoiled the boy dream,he could no longer play basketball.
However,the story will not always have a good ending,the girl was in love with someone else,someone who will not sacrifice everything for her...
"WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO ME? WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID?"the girl kneel down on the floor sobbing...
"I.......just love you..."the boy said as he stretch his arms trying to help the girl up.
"I DONT WANT YOUR LOVE!" the girl hit away the boy arms
"YOUR LOVE FOR ME IS TOO DEEP,IT CAUSE ME SUFFERING,DO YOU KNOW IT?the girl shouted
"I..........."the boy cant utter out a word.
"Why is it me!!WHY IS IT ME!!!WHY DID YOU LOVE ME?I HATE YOU!!!I HATE !!HATE!!!"the girl shouted with all her might , turn around and run away..
The girl was too guilty,she could not untie herself from her heart,she stay by the boy side because she was responsible for his injuries....until she fall in love with someone else..she no longer could tolerate spending time with someone she do not like..so she break down , and of cause broke the boy heart.
The girl ran with all her might , kept running , her tears blinding her vision,she didnt see a truck coming towards her..
"BE CAREFUL!"after the voice could be heard,someone pushed her aside"
The familiar sound of crashing was heard,once again,the girl turn around....once again a pool of blood.
"I really can do anything for you"the boy said before he fainted.
"NO!"the girl could not take it , she screamed , as hard as she could.
"Too late,the rib cage had penetrated the lungs,the internal bleeding cant be stop,he cant be saved"
"So young and......isnt there anything to be done?"
The people at the hospital was gossiping,ever sentence was pass into the girl's ear,her tears kept dropping,making her skirt wet.
If only she was more mature last time , this wouldnt have happen , If only the boy didnt like me .....she cried..because this time the boy is leaving her,now he is only waiting for death..
"I think you should go and see hiim......"the boy's father said,his sadness was all written over his face.
"ya....."the girl cant speak properly,she only kept crying.
The girl went into the ward,saw the boy pale face,her tears kept falling out from her eyes.
"Do not cry..."the boy tried to wipe away the girl tears..he heart was painful..
"you are so silly......."the girl cried non-stop
"Maybe....i am...this is for you"the boy hold tightly to a letter which was stained with blood.
"I really can do anything for you....."
That was the last sentence of the boy,he can no longer stay by the girl side,he is gone,the girl fainted.
For my dearest:
Loving you,more than half was suffering,i know that your heart will nv be mine,but i really really love you...
If only i knew that my action last time would make you unable to fly freely,i will not do it.
Do you know it?If you r happy,I really will do anything for you.
I know when you see this letter,you already have someone you like,let go of urself will you?Do not force yourself to stay by my side,I just wish you to happy.Do not ask me why i am so stupid..
Can we choose who to like or who to love?I Just like someone,I Just fall in love,thats it....
I will always stay by your side ,cause your the person i love most,I relaly can do anything for you , no matter how many years, i will not change.
The girl kept the letter,her tears stop dropping.The boy left her for 5 years already...this 5 year , she turn from a young girl to a mature lady.
the girl life,was the boy who save it,but the girl's heart still does not have the boy..
Can we choose who to like or who to love?I Just like someone,I Just fall in love,I cant choose , i know you cant choose too , we both cant.IF LOVING YOU i make you uncomfortable do tell me,i'll be gone without a trace.
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In a very peace and beautiful little city,there was a very loving couple,they would go and watch sunrise and at evening go to the beach to watch sun set, every person that see them will be in envy of them...
Unfortunately,one day the girl was involve in an serious accident and suffered heavy casulties,she lay quietly on the hospital bed,and didnt wake up for a few day.In They day , the boy would guard her bed and keep calling for his lover to wake up ; at night he would run to the small city's church to pray to the god and cry out his heart there.
One month have past ,the girl is still in coma, the boy was weak and fragile already , but he still stay by her side .(so romantic =x=x keke)Finally one day , the God was moved by this love sick boy and decided to bend the rules for this boy , the god asked him "Are u willing to xchange ur life just in order to save ur lover ?"The boy agreed without hestitation and the God replied "i will let ur lover wake p,but u must promise to be change into a butterfly for 3 years , do u agree?"the boy still agreed ....
Daylight was seen,the boy had turn into a beautiful butterfly,he bid goodbye to the god and fly rushly to the hospital,the girl really work up and was chatting with a doctor about something,but too bad he cannot hear.
Few Days later,the girl recovered and got discharge from the hospital , but she was not happy, she went around asking for the boy location , but nobody noes where the boy realli went .She keep finding everyday , the Boy who turned into a butterfly just stay around her side , only that he cannot call out and hug her , he can only watch her quietly .Summer past , Autumn was here , the butterfly had to leave the city as it was too cold ,He went to the girl shoulder for one last Time and used his tiny wings to touch her face and his small mouth to kiss her forehead , however his small and tiny body was still unable to let her find out ...(here prepare tissue =x )
In a blink of eyes , Summer was here again , the butterfly cant wait to find his lover,However her familiar back was standing beside a big tall handsome man,at that point of Time , the butterfly was like falling down from the sky , ppl start talking about how this girl was injured in the accident and how this doctor was so kind and cute and saying that their love was made in heaven , and also that the girl was happy as last time.
The butterfly was sad, in the next few days , he would see the doctor bringing his lover to see sunrise and sunset,he could only occasionally rest on her shoulders and nothings else.This year Summer was very long , the Butterfly flew everyday with a sad hard, he already did not have the courage to get near his old lover...
The 3rd year Summer , the butterfly did not went to see his ex-lover already, her face would be kissed softly by the doctor , and didnt have Time to pay attention or even find out there was a butterfly there.The god agreement of 3 years limit was reaching soon,just at the last day , the butterfly flew to the church where the doctor and his ex-lover had their wedding ,the butterfly flew quietly and rest on the god statue shoulder , He saw the doctor swore "I Will" infront of the god and put on the ring for his ex-lover and so did his ex-lover did so to the doctor ..... and see them kiss sweetly XD , the butterfly cried as he watch them..
The god asked him "are u regretting already?the butterfly replied No! ..the god says that so tomorrow u will become urself again...the butterfly shake his head and says ...let me be a butterfly 4ever ......
The morale of the story is that to use more tissue of ur house wahahaha~loving somebody doesnt need to have them~as long as they r happy u should be happy too =xbut if u do have someone plz love them alot?Do You have a butterfly on your shoulder??
* Do you agree that school sucks?
Sunday, October 14, 2007 Y
okay...its been quite long since i last posted cause this few days programme abit tight. i dont even remember where i was , i need to base on my sms to tell me where i was.rah i just going to start from yesterday aha!yesterday i went out with my sister and childhood friends to shop around taka , wisma , paragon..walk around all those "labeled" shop. my 11 year old cousin is soooooooo joke..she went into FENDI and told the sales girl that she like the fur clothing better on the rabbit alive -.- After that we went to orchard hotel for buffet dinner ((: i was SO FULL!!!!!i think i gain 5kg..they had jumbo prawns and lots of stuffs , they were making a joke..that the buffer dinner guy scared of us , give us his rival hotel voucher and ask us not to come back.all i had was meat and meat...rofl...suddenly the place was quite hot , so we went to disturb the waitress asking whether they had a fan , they really bring one -.-
We were suppose to go for a fashion show at taka,but we were late and the fashion show ended.we go to a friend hse after that to watch soccer.well on the car it was freaking funny.as all our parents are hokkien-ed and not that english educated...and the friend was a angmoh and his brother and girlfriend was on the car as well.so they said must speak in standard english so as to not to disgrace ourself.our parents called , and we spoke english to our mums!!one of them was asking wheres the CAR...the mum replied " car car car car di lao ka la(at downstairs)"freaking funny when they all try to act the slang on the phone and dont know whether our parents understand anot!!ROFL the bus driver beside us on the traffic light was laughing at us laughing -.-
im going out to meet chih chuan now...IM SO SCARED OF NOT PROMOTING , WHAT HAPPENS IF I CANT SEE HER NEXT YEAR??RAH . when the boat reach the bridge , it will be straight....im so bloody toot scared..i hate myself.bye ): that day i had a msn conversation with her i never thought i would have..after all if i could told you why i like you , that is not called like i just gave an excuse out of nowhere to answer that question..i will still wait.......as long as you let me stay by your side.
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?
But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
* Do you agree that school sucks?
Tuesday, October 9, 2007 Y
I AM MAJESTIC! I AM! muahahaa!
my right arm :p
calling you-know-who.
actually she's not la, its adrian koh
* Do you agree that school sucks?
Monday, October 8, 2007 Y
ALL MY LIFE-K-ci and Jojo
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
I'd Send You All That I'm Thinking Of........Baby
Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You So Much
You're All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile All My Face Always Seems To Glow,
You Turned My Life Around,
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down,
You're All That I've Ever Known,
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
Say...You're All That I've Ever Known
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
And I Hope That You
Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
haha.i didnt even have the intention to visit your church,
why are you so uptight,when i ask for your church the last time
round....am i that detestable?that you wouldnt want me to be there.
i wont visit your church since you dont like it.
if there was such things called faeries,
.......i would wish
to see that you are happy everyday,
that will be enough for me even if i cant wish again in my life.
* Do you agree that school sucks?
Sunday, October 7, 2007 Y
yesterday and today was so packed with activity,i went cut hair in kovan!!rah.my hair's funny now.after that i went to pool for 1 match and walk to church to meet aud!!we went to the chapel , i was confuse on what i was suppose to do , so i follow what others did..the priest was giving a sermon about moving out as they are moving the prayers thingy to payar lebar methodists girl school ,well they had the holy communion as well , i wasnt allow to take it unless im christian and i must convert first (learn that in maris stella),but i did judge myself infront of jesus..i started with the one when i was 4 years old i stole this sweet from this shop , i remember very clearly cause thats the first time i got cane!i even remember the note my mum ask me to pay the shop):
.Next i fastfoward to the few years back one..before i even start with the big one , the thing was over -.- i guess the holy communion will take 2 hours to finish up if i was to list out all my sins..well church ended..i did not get to feel the love of god that much...well im visiting another church next week!
well after church i was suppose to meet chih chuan and twig for a movie , me and twig went early and chih chuan came from a friend house ....the time was almost up and chih chuan called us to tell us that hes drunk and ask us go down to fetch him , he was in ps DEAD DRUNK,vomitting and lying on the floor and super noisy.i kept asking to shut up but he kept talking grr -.- at least i got drunk at a nicer place!!well the movie ticket cant be refund so well , i send him to my friend house to stay , and my friends are going to drink , so hes alone in the room.
he was dead asleep already so i went to downtown with twig from kembangan.that was around 3am then ,we are so bored that we decided to go red house,a haunted place.well..we walked there , and twig was saying "so this is red house?" , and some loud BANG could be heard from inside there(okay i was scared for few seconds cause its too sudden like i was expecting it ) , lol too much of a coincidence , the girls want to go off already , while me and twig went to peep haha.the girl heard scratching of the soil sounds and faster ask us to go already , well thats prolly much of the ordeal.went back to the bbq and find food to eat (: after that we took a cab home like was already 5am-6am already , i hate going out till so late.
for you,i'll bleed myself dry.
* Do you agree that school sucks?
Saturday, October 6, 2007 Y
im off to cut my hair and go to church!!im
still so sleepy~after cutting my hair imma go
churchy~~i wish i was at sentosa now.((:
Awake-Second Hand Serenade
With every appearance by you, blinding my eyes,
I can hardly remember the last time I felt like I do.
You're an angel disguised.
And you're lying real still,
but your heart beat is fast just like mine.
And the movie's long over,
that's three that have passed, one more's fine.
Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.
I'm trying real hard not to shake. I'm biting my tongue,
But I'm feeling alive and with every breathe that I take,
I feel like I've won. You're my key to survival.
And if it's a hero you want,
I can save you. Just stay here.
Your whispers are priceless.
Your breath, it is dear. So please stay near.
Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.
Say my name. I just want to hear you.
Say my name. So I know it's true.
You're changing me. You're changing me.
You showed me how to live.
So just say. So just say.
That you'll stay awake for me.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string
I just don't wanna miss anything
* Do you agree that school sucks?
PROMOS ARE OVER!!well , today i thought was a boring day..but it proved otherwise.after h1 maths i went soccer in the red hot sun for 3 hours , my legs are full of blisters and they feel wobbly.it was fun (: so long didnt have this kind of fun already.haha!i went twig house after it to bathe and sleep, i slept for dont know how long when i suddenly woke up,he took photo of me and chih chuan when we are sleeping!!wait till i get my hands on the picture ill upload haha!!(oh and i left his house phone on for 80 minutes , it was on a dial tone)after that went back to maris stella for leaver's ceremony , was late , so it ended and met darren for a long chat,it was fun (: and after that i met chih chuan and twig again to see twig eat two apple pies...rah.im so tired.im off to bed , tml im going to church!good night peeps!here i go scream my lungs out trying to get to you.you're my only one...
* Do you agree that school sucks?
Thursday, October 4, 2007 Y
爱的就是你
在愛的幸福國度 你就是我唯一
我唯一愛的就是你 我真的愛的就是你
失去才會懂的珍惜 但我珍惜你
傷越痛就是愛越深 哦 我不相信
你和我同時停止呼吸 每一次我們靠近
你讓我忘了困惑 忘了所有煩心
我把你緊緊擁入壞裡 捧你在我手心
誰叫我真的愛的就是你
在愛的純淨世界 你就是我唯一
永遠永遠不要懷疑
我把你當作我的空氣 如此形影不離
我大聲說我愛的就是你
在愛的幸福國度 你就是我唯一
我唯一愛的就是你 我真的愛的就是你
就是你 就是你 就是你
我唯一愛的就是你
我唯一愛的就是你
真的愛的就是你
愛的就是你
爱人很难,你永远不知道我的痛,因为你早有一个人在你的身边........
im back home!!!don just told me kenneth yang mark my chem paper very easy , zero marks...things are not going smoothly,it never has seen i step into serangoon junior college , i was suppose to be in poly,heaven made me stay in srjc , term 2 i was a stupid loser , term 3 i changed , even i myself can see the difference. why cant heaven give me another chance then?i only want to stay in srjc for another year to see her through A lvl's. nothing really matters much to me , the future seems too far , planning for it will just kill me.i dont know where i belong to anymore.
..rah.im going to bed...sorry for my rantings.i just had to let it out somehow.
oh yea.shawn happy 17th birthday (:
* Do you agree that school sucks?
so much for my happy ending.
wee!im so early today 9.53am!...just plan something evil on friday with my evil accomplice!shall divulge more on that day!!seems like more and more people are getting to know this sunflower blog this gay damien has -.-.yesterday went out with chih chuan and my darling twig(if you are wondering who is he,he is my sec 1 class mate (: very nice to disturb =X)for pool around 10pm,its been a long long time since i went out with him lah , lets say 3 months??after pool went supper and chat for a long long time , catching up on stuffs thats happening and complaining about mr don low!!ARGH reach home super duper ultra uber late like 5am!!HAHA.
rah.its been so long since i saw her ,i'd do anything to see her for few seconds..ill go to sch just to see her if i know shes there , but i dont wish to ask her.still remember how she describe to me where her friend was ..while rushing away....quite saddening la..i almost choke on my food ): all i wanted was a chance.guess i never get it... *cries.*
okay!imma go out meet my friend for breakfast now,h1 maths is like theres no paper anymore.haha.
because of you i never cross the road like i did before.i need to keep myself safe.just to see you again.
* Do you agree that school sucks?
Wednesday, October 3, 2007 Y
Today was history paper 2, was a killer but who cares (: i didnt study.i hate myself...well went to school around 12.30 , had lunch outside , audrey was so scared that i was late keep forcing me to hurry,well i was not late (:she gave me 53 words,argh...im still emoing today ): , went find ting sheng and darren after paper,chat for a while and they are off to mug!!!darren.dont be sad. im with you (: if you wanna cry , we can hug and cry!HAHA!!!all i wish for its a chance, darren you didnt have it , neither did i not even a chance for a meal. . im going to sleep.listening to step up sound tracks (: didnt regret watching the show , i cannot pretend i just wanna spend more time with you...am i dumb?changing so much when she didnt even ask for it.yeah i think im dumb.wish i was smart!
wo wei yi ai de jiu shi ni.
* Do you agree that school sucks?
im going back to the stars~ARGH!!!!!!!HISTORY's later. im not even prepared.im emoing for as long as i woke up from my deep slumber after my chemistry paper.went home to watch titanic after chem paper =X was suppose to go to sleep but saw the dvd...well no harm (: you jump i jump!!yea right,whose going to jump down the water, then rose should have died with jack..fine =X im just not in the mood for romantic story..stoning infront of my history lecture book , going through each page , the book just make me lose my focus -.- i wish i had a new book with nothing on it.rah im going to try to seriously memorise some dates like when that stupid colonial powers came and took over south east asia haha.
My aunt send me this email,
Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.
haha.how can i free my mind??theres just one thing left thats bothering me,im living simply,giving more and expecting just for a miracle ): is that too much?haha.guess i'll never be happy!
Good luck for your physics paper.
heard physics was easy...greats to those that took it,chih chuan just call me and woke me up at 1030 to told me SOMEONE is going somewhere meet AHEM and not going home..i mean what can i do right??im just the extra one -.- , what take a knife down and go kill everybody??i was suppose to wake up to study , now he spoil my mood.grrr.bah forget it then...at the most fail only loh thats what he said..im going back to sleep who cares. hope i dont oversleep , well my mum and dad took 30 minutes to bug me to wake up that is..till chih chuan did the final hit..killing me in my sleep,the pig is going back to my deep slumber already , sorry for my rantings.its just hmm?im just emo (:i think im annoying and a nuisance . . . .
* Do you agree that school sucks?
Tuesday, October 2, 2007 Y
ITS RAINING!!!!im stuck reading chem notes for the whole night..haha.i totally lost my concentration around midnight la..but then got back to studying again..hmmm. i better go catch some sleep , like 15-30 minute of nap (:
6.30am now.cant get to sleep ): haha. hope i can see her today.but she has no paper , so maybe i wont get to see her ):good luck for all chemists. i seriously need lots of lucks.and i found out a scandal!!!maths paper had question leak , my friend had all the question but different value and equations only! 95% came out like 20 questions please!its so unfair!!though im not a h2 student, i feel angry for them.
CHEM's OVER!!!!well..the paper was quite average..i wont get the lowest score in the whole cohord this time cause i didnt even get to sleep for 5 minute (: im going to amaze the teacher with my paper. im gonna make it to j2 , tml's history im so going to study after i sleep . >< didnt get to see her.went library and saw don instead, aha hes studying with his cute cute.XD
A lonely September-Plain White Tees
I'm sitting here all by myself
just trying to think of something to do
Trying to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind
I'm sitting here trying to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
* Do you agree that school sucks?
Monday, October 1, 2007 Y
since sec sch i've always ask why the children enjoy youth and children day , we only get to enjoy youth day.now i rather there is no holiday haha!im getting so obsessed with going to school everyday.i'm scared of flunking my promos.i have never been so scared for any exam before,maybe cause i do not see the motivation to do well in an exam before.o level was just an exam which i didn't really put my heart in,i was going out everyday even after the exam.hmmm...tml is chem i hate chem ><
GOOD LUCK DAMIENoh.i went back school today for 1 hour :)i saw her...haha so wishes do come true.(: thought that she already left so i wore my specs. haha . continue to do some chem after that
Audrey decided to bring me to go her church on saturday or rather i was psychoed into it =X!!!(im wearing singlet,boxer and slippers)HAHA..i am scared i don't know why,i hope theres not much preaching....i have exams and i have to go over to my granny's place to take something for my sister...as usual my auntie tries to give me some money ,i have to run away while she chase me down the stairs.i won (: i rather starve than take money from them
* Do you agree that school sucks?
