Your Guardian Angel <3

2007-12-01T02:16:00.000+08:00

oh , i was browsing through all my baby photos (: and i found out i was cute all the way when i was very very very young (: next time i shall take some photos of the photos and post it (: HAHA

2007-12-01T00:39:00.001+08:00

shits happens dont they (: and they come one after another..haha (:f

2007-11-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

F U C K .Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2007-11-25T00:26:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY!!! Eh AH EH AH EH WOOOO~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOMENICA TAN 锐资!!!!

today got to be one of the good day of my life , not the best , but one of the good one (: Went to east coast to celebrate my bro birthday!!i was semi-drunk before 7pm , but i controlled , i didnt want to get drunk (: drank some tequila shots and pop , and some tiger beers haha! SOME SAY NTH LAST FOREVER , BUT BROTHERS ARE FOREVER.They changed after all this stuffs , and im quite happy , they will continue with their studies , and so will i. SO I WILL GO BACK SRJC AND PIAH ! ALL THOSE J2 NEXT YEAR BETTER COME BACK TO SCH DURING THE COMMENDATION DAY AND SEE ME TAKE PRIZES!!!!!! (: this may be a good news or bad news cause you all will have to entertain my lame jokes again (: but this time i go back , im no longer the damien i use to be , so be prepared for the new and improved DAMIEN.I'll be back.

i have good friends in srjc , dom and shawn are one of them (: this two couple are crazy idiotic and horrible (: hmm , i just cant stand them! i love you both (: but maybe not as much as i love my boxers. HAHAHAHAHA (: DOM DOM DOM , i have a bottle of you in my hse , D.O.M fa guo lan jiu haha!TAKE CARE AND STAY HAPPY EVERYBODY.Some say nothing last forever, but diamonds are forever,so DIAMONDS = FRIENDSHIP (:

AUDSY and lynnie tan bao bao ling! I KNOW YOU TWO MISS ME , DONT WORRY IM GOING BACK NOW, NOW YOU CAN BOTH HUG THE MAGNIFICENT AND CUTE DAMIEN AGAIN!!!!!!!!Sorry auntie wan li (: you may have to endure my noisiness again in sch (: but i'll try not to be so noisy when you are studying okay!!!

as year 2008 approach , hope next year will be better for everybody! especially the special you.(: next year my birthday everybody will have to GIVE ME PRESENT REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY APRIL 30, and very sorry for everything that i have done and all those things that have not happen yet.im sincerely sorry.

the last something that meant anything to anybody that noes me!Im smart , cute , sexy , lovable , handsome , hot , cool and im superduperuberultrafantastic damien. I'll take you to the candy shop, EH AH EH AH EH WOOO~

2007-11-21T07:20:00.000+08:00

does fate have to do this?from today onward,this shall by the lonely journey i take alone,i shall find a place alone.fate is forcing me (: as tears go with the chilling wind , cover my journey , but do you know im still drunk after crying.

2007-11-20T02:03:00.000+08:00

i just came back from work at 2am.i rock. and im not going to bed got to go back to work at 6am , haha (: iron man damien.my mum doesnt like me working , cause i dont get enough sleep. okay i dont get enough sleep(72 hours not asleep and counting,im going to break down soon i guess)..work with my biggest boss , so cheong dont even let me eat lunch i only had breakfast at 6am and dinner at 7pm , what the hell!!!!!!AND F U C K (i didnt scold it , i spell it out , learn from someone) A STUPID IDIOTIC CENTIPEDE OR MILLIPEDE BITE MY FREAKING ASS TWICE , ONE ON EACH SIDE.I think got poison , what happens if i die tml? freak lo , i was sitting down and my boxers suddenly felt very itchy and painful , and it shift to the other side , kns. it took my virgin bite from those whatever shit ass crawly creepers. Maybe all this work will help me through something , imma go and bathe and massage my cute butt (: and yh i xfer the money already.go check your bank!

2007-11-19T04:54:00.000+08:00

One year in serangoon junior college , i left behind alot of memories.someone told me before life is like a mrt , people get in and get out of the train , and those of friends will follow you to your destination,some may decide to stop halfway through your journey.it sounds very right..but those people will leave their footsteps in your life as they leave.You guys did an impact in my life , Thanks and Sorry for everything that i did , and sorry that i cant accompany you guys anymore in SRJC and keep you all entertain with my stupid lame jokes that you guys might like or hate.

This is for those who might pass by my blogs and read.

Lynnie tan bao bao ling ling -One of my nannies.You are a good girl , but you are toooooo open (: not every guy is good okay!dont go around having so much flings,enjoy srjc as much as before,i know you love the sch,you will do very very well with A lvl if you study and stop flirting that much (: You're one responsible CT-rep that never fail to do your duty without giving chance to people!

Audsy Goh Shih Ying (Shit Ying )-Another of my nannies.You have been a very dear friend , thinking back that you use to hate me!now you love me HAHAHAHA! (: stop being soooo lazy and study and listen in class okay!try to make friends with your class , either way you are stuck with them for 1 more year , study hard for your A lvl,we shall keep in contact on msn.

Yip Wanli-The oldest nanny!The retainee one!(: sorry for everything , sorry that im always too noisy in lecture and class that make you unable to pay attention but sometime you are gossipping away too! (: whats studies without fun and noise in it.Stop being so paranoid over studies , you are putting studies too high up , try to relax abit.Take care for we shall never see each other again wearing the same uniform (:

Shawn Liu Li Jian-A cute loving boy.When i first came to my class , i use to think oh greats.there is shawn,one of my sec 2 classmates and roll my eyes.he THINK THAT WAY TOOO,not only me.But later on , we found out that we are both gay and love each other despite him having dom (:Enjoy retainee dude,you will pass your A lvl if you stop playing around and having our marist style of studying!

Domenica Tan Rui Zi-i think thats your chinese name , i happen to like your chinese name alot , cause its unique and sounds nice , never heard it before =) anyway dom is a caring friend and one crazy girl just right for shawn!she is smart i guess o.o , but i stole shawn from her , so im a better person (: ROARS!Whats UP YO!!!THIS IS THE EAST SIDE!!!

Koh Yhih Huua-Even though i know you for 3 days back then , you act as if we know for 3years ! what are you thinking , stupid living in self denial girl , you are CRAZY! (:how do i put it , stop trying to run away from the problem , when the problem keep surfacing (: be strong and do whatever you want okay!Take care and think of whether to drop out or continue your A's.

Teddy Lee Jun Wen-hmm....you are a Angel and Demon to me (: always pulling me up and killing me down. haha , you are one good friend and a good drummer , keep trying to influence me with god and talking to me about YOUR FAVOURITE!Yea (: i cant really say much she might get to see this blog (: haha , im trying to save your cute ass okay!Enjoy heartware as much as possible!

Melissa liang hui min-i dont know what to say,cause words cant simply put out what that is on my mind right now....thats alot of stuffs i want to say but i'll pass (: Maybe it was a blessing for me to know you , or a disaster i dont know.Anyway take care and stay happy and enjoy your life in srjc (:

it just happen that i know the full name of everybody.Hope you guys will forget about me (: goodbye everybody.I will take care of myself , dont worry , at the most i will be .......argh whatever (: this is a happy post HAHA (: I LOVE SRJC.its the first sch i wake up early in the morning and want to go no matter how sick i am , band was the first cca that i stayed the longest.maybe theres a motivation for me to go to sch bah , who cares (: I got work at 6am , but i cant get to sleep , i hate my bed now.cant get me to fall asleep.im going to rest now .goodnight and goodbye.

PS:i didnt sleep and its 5.51 now , imma go to work already (: cya all.yhih huua i'll xfer you the 24 bucks for TEDDY's present(WASTE OF MY MONEY LOH =P) if i dont forget or im too tired haha .

2007-11-12T00:26:00.000+08:00

well.since yh ask me to update.i shall , this will be the last blog entry i guess (: been busy with work lately. see i updated.bye im off to bed.tml need to go work.

2007-10-31T02:50:00.000+08:00

Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. Love bears all things; believes all things; hopes all things; endures all things.|

Can you choose whether or not to love someone?

The boy was too silly,sacrifice so much for the one he love.....

If There is someone by ur side that is like this..remember to cherish him..

In The Girl Memory , there is such a person..

Okay......here is how the story goes..

"The person i like is infront of me!"the boy said loudly as he pointed to the girl walking infront of him.

"Crazy"the girl said .....as she walk through the crowd which was there to see what was happening...she thought the boy was kidding...until one day she receive a letter..

The Letter was as followed "I really like you!I can do anything you wish".one letter,without any name,just a few short setences,but the girl know it was the boy who wrote it.

"Can you jump into the middle of the road??" the girl wrote behind the letter and ask someone to pass it to the boy..

"I can!You watch." the boy saw what the girl wrote, and rush into the middle of the road infront of the girl..

Only to hear a few horns and the sliding of the car brake and a huge bang...the girl rush quickly to the boy who was in a pool of blood..

"I can really do anything for you...."the boy said with a weak voice atin the hospital,but the girl heard clearly what he said...

"It was your daughter that make our son rush into the road!

"Bullshit!It was your son that ran in himself!"

"What you mean by bullshit?His classmate also heard it,our son saw the letter from ur daughter than rush in!"

"Is it true?"The girl's mother turn back and look at her daughter..

The girl nodded her head,tears was dropping from her face onto the letter the boy wrote for her..

"Our son life is now destroyed!He can no longer play basketball......The boy's mother scream while kneeling on the hospital floor crying....

"......"The girls parent kept silent...

"I wan ur daughter to stay by my son side , until he do not need her,that is what ur daughter owe us!"The boy father said...

"No! she dont love your son!You cannot be so selfish!"the girl's mother cant bear to let her daughter take this cruel punishment..

"Okay....I will stay by him.",the girl agreed ...

----------------------------------Two Years later--------------------------

At the garden seat, the boy and the girl sat quietly,the soothing wind blew on their face.

"Why did you like me?"The girl suddenly asked.

"Can we choose who to like or who to love?I Just like someone,I Just fall in love,thats it..i cant choose"the boy replied slowly..

"If one day , i like someone will you let me go??"the girl asked.

"I have never ever tied you down , it is yourself that didnt let yourself go"

Suddenly there was silence,only rustle of the leaves could be heard..

The boy was right , two years ago after he wake up , he cancelled the agreement,but the girl decided to stay by the boy side.She was guilt,just because of one setence she wrote,spoiled the boy dream,he could no longer play basketball.

However,the story will not always have a good ending,the girl was in love with someone else,someone who will not sacrifice everything for her...

"WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO ME? WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID?"the girl kneel down on the floor sobbing...

"I.......just love you..."the boy said as he stretch his arms trying to help the girl up.

"I DONT WANT YOUR LOVE!" the girl hit away the boy arms

"YOUR LOVE FOR ME IS TOO DEEP,IT CAUSE ME SUFFERING,DO YOU KNOW IT?the girl shouted

"I..........."the boy cant utter out a word.

"Why is it me!!WHY IS IT ME!!!WHY DID YOU LOVE ME?I HATE YOU!!!I HATE !!HATE!!!"the girl shouted with all her might , turn around and run away..

The girl was too guilty,she could not untie herself from her heart,she stay by the boy side because she was responsible for his injuries....until she fall in love with someone else..she no longer could tolerate spending time with someone she do not like..so she break down , and of cause broke the boy heart.

The girl ran with all her might , kept running , her tears blinding her vision,she didnt see a truck coming towards her..

"BE CAREFUL!"after the voice could be heard,someone pushed her aside"

The familiar sound of crashing was heard,once again,the girl turn around....once again a pool of blood.

"I really can do anything for you"the boy said before he fainted.

"NO!"the girl could not take it , she screamed , as hard as she could.

"Too late,the rib cage had penetrated the lungs,the internal bleeding cant be stop,he cant be saved"

"So young and......isnt there anything to be done?"

The people at the hospital was gossiping,ever sentence was pass into the girl's ear,her tears kept dropping,making her skirt wet.

If only she was more mature last time , this wouldnt have happen , If only the boy didnt like me .....she cried..because this time the boy is leaving her,now he is only waiting for death..

"I think you should go and see hiim......"the boy's father said,his sadness was all written over his face.

"ya....."the girl cant speak properly,she only kept crying.

The girl went into the ward,saw the boy pale face,her tears kept falling out from her eyes.

"Do not cry..."the boy tried to wipe away the girl tears..he heart was painful..

"you are so silly......."the girl cried non-stop

"Maybe....i am...this is for you"the boy hold tightly to a letter which was stained with blood.

"I really can do anything for you....."

That was the last sentence of the boy,he can no longer stay by the girl side,he is gone,the girl fainted.

For my dearest:

Loving you,more than half was suffering,i know that your heart will nv be mine,but i really really love you...

If only i knew that my action last time would make you unable to fly freely,i will not do it.

Do you know it?If you r happy,I really will do anything for you.

I know when you see this letter,you already have someone you like,let go of urself will you?Do not force yourself to stay by my side,I just wish you to happy.Do not ask me why i am so stupid..

Can we choose who to like or who to love?I Just like someone,I Just fall in love,thats it....

I will always stay by your side ,cause your the person i love most,I relaly can do anything for you , no matter how many years, i will not change.

The girl kept the letter,her tears stop dropping.The boy left her for 5 years already...this 5 year , she turn from a young girl to a mature lady.

the girl life,was the boy who save it,but the girl's heart still does not have the boy..

Can we choose who to like or who to love?I Just like someone,I Just fall in love,I cant choose , i know you cant choose too , we both cant.IF LOVING YOU i make you uncomfortable do tell me,i'll be gone without a trace.

2007-10-31T02:38:00.001+08:00

In a very peace and beautiful little city,there was a very loving couple,they would go and watch sunrise and at evening go to the beach to watch sun set, every person that see them will be in envy of them...

Unfortunately,one day the girl was involve in an serious accident and suffered heavy casulties,she lay quietly on the hospital bed,and didnt wake up for a few day.In They day , the boy would guard her bed and keep calling for his lover to wake up ; at night he would run to the small city's church to pray to the god and cry out his heart there.

One month have past ,the girl is still in coma, the boy was weak and fragile already , but he still stay by her side .(so romantic =x=x keke)Finally one day , the God was moved by this love sick boy and decided to bend the rules for this boy , the god asked him "Are u willing to xchange ur life just in order to save ur lover ?"The boy agreed without hestitation and the God replied "i will let ur lover wake p,but u must promise to be change into a butterfly for 3 years , do u agree?"the boy still agreed ....

Daylight was seen,the boy had turn into a beautiful butterfly,he bid goodbye to the god and fly rushly to the hospital,the girl really work up and was chatting with a doctor about something,but too bad he cannot hear.

Few Days later,the girl recovered and got discharge from the hospital , but she was not happy, she went around asking for the boy location , but nobody noes where the boy realli went .She keep finding everyday , the Boy who turned into a butterfly just stay around her side , only that he cannot call out and hug her , he can only watch her quietly .Summer past , Autumn was here , the butterfly had to leave the city as it was too cold ,He went to the girl shoulder for one last Time and used his tiny wings to touch her face and his small mouth to kiss her forehead , however his small and tiny body was still unable to let her find out ...(here prepare tissue =x )

In a blink of eyes , Summer was here again , the butterfly cant wait to find his lover,However her familiar back was standing beside a big tall handsome man,at that point of Time , the butterfly was like falling down from the sky , ppl start talking about how this girl was injured in the accident and how this doctor was so kind and cute and saying that their love was made in heaven , and also that the girl was happy as last time.

The butterfly was sad, in the next few days , he would see the doctor bringing his lover to see sunrise and sunset,he could only occasionally rest on her shoulders and nothings else.This year Summer was very long , the Butterfly flew everyday with a sad hard, he already did not have the courage to get near his old lover...

The 3rd year Summer , the butterfly did not went to see his ex-lover already, her face would be kissed softly by the doctor , and didnt have Time to pay attention or even find out there was a butterfly there.The god agreement of 3 years limit was reaching soon,just at the last day , the butterfly flew to the church where the doctor and his ex-lover had their wedding ,the butterfly flew quietly and rest on the god statue shoulder , He saw the doctor swore "I Will" infront of the god and put on the ring for his ex-lover and so did his ex-lover did so to the doctor ..... and see them kiss sweetly XD , the butterfly cried as he watch them..

The god asked him "are u regretting already?the butterfly replied No! ..the god says that so tomorrow u will become urself again...the butterfly shake his head and says ...let me be a butterfly 4ever ......

The morale of the story is that to use more tissue of ur house wahahaha~loving somebody doesnt need to have them~as long as they r happy u should be happy too =xbut if u do have someone plz love them alot?Do You have a butterfly on your shoulder??

2007-10-14T15:17:00.000+08:00

DONT WANT IT TO END!!!I JUST WANT TO SEE HER!

okay...its been quite long since i last posted cause this few days programme abit tight. i dont even remember where i was , i need to base on my sms to tell me where i was.rah i just going to start from yesterday aha!yesterday i went out with my sister and childhood friends to shop around taka , wisma , paragon..walk around all those "labeled" shop. my 11 year old cousin is soooooooo joke..she went into FENDI and told the sales girl that she like the fur clothing better on the rabbit alive -.- After that we went to orchard hotel for buffet dinner ((: i was SO FULL!!!!!i think i gain 5kg..they had jumbo prawns and lots of stuffs , they were making a joke..that the buffer dinner guy scared of us , give us his rival hotel voucher and ask us not to come back.all i had was meat and meat...rofl...suddenly the place was quite hot , so we went to disturb the waitress asking whether they had a fan , they really bring one -.-

We were suppose to go for a fashion show at taka,but we were late and the fashion show ended.we go to a friend hse after that to watch soccer.well on the car it was freaking funny.as all our parents are hokkien-ed and not that english educated...and the friend was a angmoh and his brother and girlfriend was on the car as well.so they said must speak in standard english so as to not to disgrace ourself.our parents called , and we spoke english to our mums!!one of them was asking wheres the CAR...the mum replied " car car car car di lao ka la(at downstairs)"freaking funny when they all try to act the slang on the phone and dont know whether our parents understand anot!!ROFL the bus driver beside us on the traffic light was laughing at us laughing -.-

im going out to meet chih chuan now...IM SO SCARED OF NOT PROMOTING , WHAT HAPPENS IF I CANT SEE HER NEXT YEAR??RAH . when the boat reach the bridge , it will be straight....im so bloody toot scared..i hate myself.bye ): that day i had a msn conversation with her i never thought i would have..after all if i could told you why i like you , that is not called like i just gave an excuse out of nowhere to answer that question..i will still wait.......as long as you let me stay by your side.

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that 
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it 
Where's the sense in that? 
But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender 
There will be no white flag above my door 
I'm in love and always will be 

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder

2007-10-09T14:02:00.000+08:00

I AM MAJESTIC! I AM! muahahaa!

my right arm :p
calling you-know-who.
actually she's not la, its adrian koh

2007-10-08T00:37:00.001+08:00

ALL MY LIFE-K-ci and Jojo


All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

I'd Send You All That I'm Thinking Of........Baby

Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You So Much

You're All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile All My Face Always Seems To Glow,
You Turned My Life Around,
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down,
You're All That I've Ever Known,
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
Say...You're All That I've Ever Known
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
And I Hope That You
Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too






haha.i didnt even have the intention to visit your church,
why are you so uptight,when i ask for your church the last time
round....am i that detestable?that you wouldnt want me to be there.
i wont visit your church since you dont like it.


if there was such things called faeries,
.......i would wish
to see that you are happy everyday,
that will be enough for me even if i cant wish again in my life.

2007-10-07T12:12:00.000+08:00

sometimes i get the feeling shes watching over me , other time i feel like i should go

yesterday and today was so packed with activity,i went cut hair in kovan!!rah.my hair's funny now.after that i went to pool for 1 match and walk to church to meet aud!!we went to the chapel , i was confuse on what i was suppose to do , so i follow what others did..the priest was giving a sermon about moving out as they are moving the prayers thingy to payar lebar methodists girl school ,well they had the holy communion as well , i wasnt allow to take it unless im christian and i must convert first (learn that in maris stella),but i did judge myself infront of jesus..i started with the one when i was 4 years old i stole this sweet from this shop , i remember very clearly cause thats the first time i got cane!i even remember the note my mum ask me to pay the shop):
.Next i fastfoward to the few years back one..before i even start with the big one , the thing was over -.- i guess the holy communion will take 2 hours to finish up if i was to list out all my sins..well church ended..i did not get to feel the love of god that much...well im visiting another church next week!

well after church i was suppose to meet chih chuan and twig for a movie , me and twig went early and chih chuan came from a friend house ....the time was almost up and chih chuan called us to tell us that hes drunk and ask us go down to fetch him , he was in ps DEAD DRUNK,vomitting and lying on the floor and super noisy.i kept asking to shut up but he kept talking grr -.- at least i got drunk at a nicer place!!well the movie ticket cant be refund so well , i send him to my friend house to stay , and my friends are going to drink , so hes alone in the room.

he was dead asleep already so i went to downtown with twig from kembangan.that was around 3am then ,we are so bored that we decided to go red house,a haunted place.well..we walked there , and twig was saying "so this is red house?" , and some loud BANG could be heard from inside there(okay i was scared for few seconds cause its too sudden like i was expecting it ) , lol too much of a coincidence , the girls want to go off already , while me and twig went to peep haha.the girl heard scratching of the soil sounds and faster ask us to go already , well thats prolly much of the ordeal.went back to the bbq and find food to eat (: after that we took a cab home like was already 5am-6am already , i hate going out till so late.

for you,i'll bleed myself dry.

2007-10-06T15:44:00.000+08:00

im off to cut my hair and go to church!!im
still so sleepy~after cutting my hair imma go 
churchy~~i wish i was at sentosa now.((:



Awake-Second Hand Serenade

With every appearance by you, blinding my eyes,
I can hardly remember the last time I felt like I do.
You're an angel disguised.

And you're lying real still,
but your heart beat is fast just like mine.
And the movie's long over,
that's three that have passed, one more's fine.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

I'm trying real hard not to shake. I'm biting my tongue,
But I'm feeling alive and with every breathe that I take,
I feel like I've won. You're my key to survival.

And if it's a hero you want,
I can save you. Just stay here.
Your whispers are priceless.
Your breath, it is dear. So please stay near.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

Say my name. I just want to hear you.
Say my name. So I know it's true.
You're changing me. You're changing me. 
You showed me how to live. 
So just say. So just say.

That you'll stay awake for me.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string
I just don't wanna miss anything

2007-10-06T04:48:00.000+08:00

PROMOS ARE OVER!!well , today i thought was a boring day..but it proved otherwise.after h1 maths i went soccer in the red hot sun for 3 hours , my legs are full of blisters and they feel wobbly.it was fun (: so long didnt have this kind of fun already.haha!i went twig house after it to bathe and sleep, i slept for dont know how long when i suddenly woke up,he took photo of me and chih chuan when we are sleeping!!wait till i get my hands on the picture ill upload haha!!(oh and i left his house phone on for 80 minutes , it was on a dial tone)after that went back to maris stella for leaver's ceremony , was late , so it ended and met darren for a long chat,it was fun (: and after that i met chih chuan and twig again to see twig eat two apple pies...rah.im so tired.im off to bed , tml im going to church!good night peeps!

here i go scream my lungs out trying to get to you.you're my only one...

2007-10-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

爱的就是你
在愛的幸福國度你就是我唯一
我唯一愛的就是你我真的愛的就是你

失去才會懂的珍惜但我珍惜你
傷越痛就是愛越深哦我不相信
你和我同時停止呼吸每一次我們靠近
你讓我忘了困惑忘了所有煩心

我把你緊緊擁入壞裡捧你在我手心
誰叫我真的愛的就是你
在愛的純淨世界你就是我唯一
永遠永遠不要懷疑

我把你當作我的空氣如此形影不離
我大聲說我愛的就是你
在愛的幸福國度你就是我唯一
我唯一愛的就是你我真的愛的就是你

就是你就是你就是你
我唯一愛的就是你

我唯一愛的就是你
真的愛的就是你
愛的就是你

爱人很难,你永远不知道我的痛,因为你早有一个人在你的身边........

im back home!!!don just told me kenneth yang mark my chem paper very easy , zero marks...things are not going smoothly,it never has seen i step into serangoon junior college , i was suppose to be in poly,heaven made me stay in srjc , term 2 i was a stupid loser , term 3 i changed , even i myself can see the difference. why cant heaven give me another chance then?i only want to stay in srjc for another year to see her through A lvl's. nothing really matters much to me , the future seems too far , planning for it will just kill me.i dont know where i belong to anymore.
..rah.im going to bed...sorry for my rantings.i just had to let it out somehow.

oh yea.shawn happy 17th birthday (:

2007-10-04T09:51:00.001+08:00

so much for my happy ending.

wee!im so early today 9.53am!...just plan something evil on friday with my evil accomplice!shall divulge more on that day!!seems like more and more people are getting to know this sunflower blog this gay damien has -.-.yesterday went out with chih chuan and my darling twig(if you are wondering who is he,he is my sec 1 class mate (: very nice to disturb =X)for pool around 10pm,its been a long long time since i went out with him lah , lets say 3 months??after pool went supper and chat for a long long time , catching up on stuffs thats happening and complaining about mr don low!!ARGH reach home super duper ultra uber late like 5am!!HAHA.

rah.its been so long since i saw her ,i'd do anything to see her for few seconds..ill go to sch just to see her if i know shes there , but i dont wish to ask her.still remember how she describe to me where her friend was ..while rushing away....quite saddening la..i almost choke on my food ): all i wanted was a chance.guess i never get it... *cries.*

okay!imma go out meet my friend for breakfast now,h1 maths is like theres no paper anymore.haha.

because of you i never cross the road like i did before.i need to keep myself safe.just to see you again.

2007-10-03T19:36:00.001+08:00

i can do whatever i want like you!

Today was history paper 2, was a killer but who cares (: i didnt study.i hate myself...well went to school around 12.30 , had lunch outside , audrey was so scared that i was late keep forcing me to hurry,well i was not late (:she gave me 53 words,argh...im still emoing today ): , went find ting sheng and darren after paper,chat for a while and they are off to mug!!!darren.dont be sad. im with you (: if you wanna cry , we can hug and cry!HAHA!!!all i wish for its a chance, darren you didnt have it , neither did i not even a chance for a meal. . im going to sleep.listening to step up sound tracks (: didnt regret watching the show , i cannot pretend i just wanna spend more time with you...am i dumb?changing so much when she didnt even ask for it.yeah i think im dumb.wish i was smart!

wo wei yi ai de jiu shi ni.

2007-10-03T03:09:00.000+08:00

im going back to the stars~
ARGH!!!!!!!HISTORY's later. im not even prepared.im emoing for as long as i woke up from my deep slumber after my chemistry paper.went home to watch titanic after chem paper =X was suppose to go to sleep but saw the dvd...well no harm (: you jump i jump!!yea right,whose going to jump down the water, then rose should have died with jack..fine =X im just not in the mood for romantic story..stoning infront of my history lecture book , going through each page , the book just make me lose my focus -.- i wish i had a new book with nothing on it.rah im going to try to seriously memorise some dates like when that stupid colonial powers came and took over south east asia haha.

My aunt send me this email,

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.

haha.how can i free my mind??theres just one thing left thats bothering me,im living simply,giving more and expecting just for a miracle ): is that too much?haha.guess i'll never be happy!

Good luck for your physics paper.

heard physics was easy...greats to those that took it,chih chuan just call me and woke me up at 1030 to told me SOMEONE is going somewhere meet AHEM and not going home..i mean what can i do right??im just the extra one -.- , what take a knife down and go kill everybody??i was suppose to wake up to study , now he spoil my mood.grrr.bah forget it then...at the most fail only loh thats what he said..im going back to sleep who cares. hope i dont oversleep , well my mum and dad took 30 minutes to bug me to wake up that is..till chih chuan did the final hit..killing me in my sleep,the pig is going back to my deep slumber already , sorry for my rantings.its just hmm?im just emo (:i think im annoying and a nuisance . . . .

2007-10-02T05:51:00.001+08:00

ITS RAINING!!!!im stuck reading chem notes for the whole night..haha.i totally lost my concentration around midnight la..but then got back to studying again..hmmm. i better go catch some sleep , like 15-30 minute of nap (:

6.30am now.cant get to sleep ): haha. hope i can see her today.but she has no paper , so maybe i wont get to see her ):good luck for all chemists. i seriously need lots of lucks.and i found out a scandal!!!maths paper had question leak , my friend had all the question but different value and equations only! 95% came out like 20 questions please!its so unfair!!though im not a h2 student, i feel angry for them.

CHEM's OVER!!!!well..the paper was quite average..i wont get the lowest score in the whole cohord this time cause i didnt even get to sleep for 5 minute (: im going to amaze the teacher with my paper. im gonna make it to j2 , tml's history im so going to study after i sleep . >< didnt get to see her.went library and saw don instead, aha hes studying with his cute cute.XD

A lonely September-Plain White Tees

I'm sitting here all by myself
just trying to think of something to do
Trying to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind


I'm sitting here trying to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone

2007-10-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN DAY!!!

since sec sch i've always ask why the children enjoy youth and children day , we only get to enjoy youth day.now i rather there is no holiday haha!im getting so obsessed with going to school everyday.i'm scared of flunking my promos.i have never been so scared for any exam before,maybe cause i do not see the motivation to do well in an exam before.o level was just an exam which i didn't really put my heart in,i was going out everyday even after the exam.hmmm...tml is chem i hate chem ><

GOOD LUCK DAMIEN

oh.i went back school today for 1 hour :)i saw her...haha so wishes do come true.(: thought that she already left so i wore my specs. haha . continue to do some chem after that

Audrey decided to bring me to go her church on saturday or rather i was psychoed into it =X!!!(im wearing singlet,boxer and slippers)HAHA..i am scared i don't know why,i hope theres not much preaching....i have exams and i have to go over to my granny's place to take something for my sister...as usual my auntie tries to give me some money ,i have to run away while she chase me down the stairs.i won (: i rather starve than take money from them

2007-09-30T03:47:00.000+08:00

Lifehouse-Hanging by a moment

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking, completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation, you take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose, there's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world that can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you

songs never had the same meaning before...i know you'll never see this but o well (:

there's nothing else for me to lose,i lost everything,there's nothing else for me.
there's nothing in the world that can change my mind...

2007-09-28T03:00:00.000+08:00

rah.im such a pig =X i took dunno how many alarm clocks and my mum tried to wake up while audrey called me for 26 times and only 27th time i answer!haha =X thanks audrey :) after i said i was awake i went back to sleep till my mum keep bugging me to wake up >.< haha then i have to push myself up cause i dont want to flunk promos. i cant afford to at this time!!!!im going back to study history im so deprived of sleep.

OH!!!!DARREN MADE MY DAY TODAY!!he always seems to manipulate my feelings very well -.- and good luck for the lovebird i keep seeing today =) J n L. aud you are not inside. muahaha!thanks teddy for wasting your time with me today!!ahh.i think you wont mind cause you get to see *ahems*, ah well =) we're quite even.

milo and pocky , hope that will cheer you up and lessen the pain!!!

good luck for all chinese paper tml. i seriously need that luck! cause i didnt even read a book about chinese =X

2007-09-26T16:28:00.001+08:00

i was absent from sch today. thanks to a little chat with darren lee aka teddy =) thanks dude, your words seriously does little impact on me (sarcasm). go study and stop thinking about your tevez jersey!and i hate you =)

you can put the blame on me .

2007-09-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

todays mid autumn festival.just kinda start studying today.

as i was walking home,i saw lots of children playing with sparkers and fire,suddenly i miss my childhood,things were much simpler back then.right now my life has so much complication,not that i dont want to be simple.i cant okay..and i was walking home trying not to think about cigarettes. all those people that walk pass me was smoking , even a cyclist. all the smoke blew right to my face.tempting..but didnt

im still obsessed with the song put the blame on me,so heres a list of apologies for people who might see this and where did i done you wrong.

don----sorry for arguing with you every time and dont feel bad when you cant help people, you are better off with your classmates at least you are studying hard with them
chih chuan----sorry for teaching you how to smoke,even though i know it harms your body...glad that you have already quit.else ill always be guilty.
kevin----sorry for always forgetting to ask you out when we are going out =)
lynn----sorry for giving you lots of trouble and lots of jokes that sabo you =)
audrey----sorry for annoying you with the same topic over and over again like everyday haha!and please go home...
wan li(monkey)----sorry for not concentrating during lectures and make you lose your focus =)and always calling you a monkey ..well you only reply when i call you monkey!
shawn----sorry for always not letting you pay for drinks and stuffs haha.
domenica----sorry for making you feel bad on friday =)
darren aka teddy.----sorry for talking to you over the same topic again , while you are trying to pull my hopes up xD
melissa----sorry for everything.those dissapointment and all those stuffs. i wish i could undo it..but..im just so so so sorry for everything.i dont know .....arh...forget it.haha. i wish i can still go to band =) we havent had a BAND OUTING YET or rather our own outing excluding princesses haha!!!!

GOOD LUCK FOR PROMOS!

lord im doing all i can to be a better man , so give me some chance.

2007-09-25T01:02:00.000+08:00

As life goes on, I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that I've done
And things that haven't occurred yet
And things that they don’t want to take responsibility for


You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me



im so sorry for friday night. i didnt meant to impose you all..
its just that...arh..i dont know how to put it in words.
just so sorry. at least my friends seen the downs and ups of my lifes ,
so one sorry will do fine.but i dont know about you guys. im just ARGHHHHHHHHH.
if that 1 hour or so may help for your promos. im so sorry and bad to take that away
i have no right. but i did.im so sorry.
you can put the blame on me.
study hard for promos. =)
i seriously dont think i will make it
im already making plans for poly already.

2007-09-24T17:19:00.000+08:00

i tooooook early leave...................to go home and sleep.just woke up not long ago. guys prolly having econs lessons and physics lessons in school, aud's having pe ! was suppose to go bugis , but figured i was so tired on the bus , i went home and knock out straight away haha. got a few miss call on my phone ...going to try to study right now =)

2007-09-24T02:02:00.000+08:00

bah.im soooooooo bored. nobody's awake to let me disturb on msn.oh yea. ite having holiday , i think maybe i can find someone to meet me before i go to sch ! =p AND LYNN TAN BAO LING!!!GRRR MAN UTD WON!HAHA . greats =X audrey goh shih ying , i forgot how to spell your lil brother name already =)

all i've got's what you didn't take

2007-09-23T17:26:00.000+08:00

i dont know whats wrong with me , i just vomited again . bah i think god taking my life soon =) time for me to go back nap while when i wake up decided whether i want to study econs and history for promos. most prob not i guess . =)



Go, go, go, go, go, go, go shawty is your birthday
we gonna party like is your birthday

headache.

2007-09-23T04:18:00.000+08:00

for those who bother reading this blog.

its 4.18am...im practially having a bad headache and i still can feel the vodka inside my stomach feel like vomitting for the whole day. im so damn bloody tired but i will not sleep. im toturing myself. imma go watch moonwalker from michael jackson now. today i went out to joo seng at around evening i suppose doing the usual stuffs and playing basketball till 12+ and reach home around 1.i was so noob in basketball that i went play psp halfway and they ask me to play basketball again(MY LEGS GOT BLISTERS.).someone drank vodka near us and could not take it and vomited the smell was omg!the vodka smell is so strong and im so scared of it i ran far far far away till i cant smell it. im afraid of that -.- okay imma go watch moonwalker(michael jackson movie when i caught it quite young like 4-6 year old where he turn into a robot) and that thing you do (the wonders biography)

okie.today i found out something....i told darren something about money , 4 dollars!haha =p

I LOVE THIS SHOW!!!THAT THING YOU DO!!<--movie and the song rocks.speaks my heart.

You, doing that thing you do
Breakin' my heart into a million pieces
Like you always do
And you, don't mean to be cruel
You never even knew, about the heartache
I've been going through
And I try and try to forget you girl
But it's just so hard to do
Everytime you do that thing you do

And I, know all the games you play
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that,
You'll be mine someday
'Cause we, could be happy can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you
And keep you here with me

Cause I try and try to forget you girl
But it's just so hard to do
Everytime you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl(I don't ask a lot girl)
But I know one thing for sure (Know one thing for sure)
It's the love that I haven't got girl
And I just can't take it anymore
(Woah!!)

Cause we, could be happy can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you
And keep you here with me

Cause it hurts me so just to see you go
Around with someone new
And if I know you,  you're doing that thing
Everyday just doing that thing
I can't take you doing that thing you do

2007-09-22T14:42:00.000+08:00

this is the old me:
1) hardworking
2) geeky

but that's all in the past........
I am Handsome and Cool now!
BIG TRANSFORMATION!

sorry dom, i have to admit that i have secretly carried a touch for shawn for a few years. counting the times in maria stella high.. haiz

i always sit like this during GP.. they don't call me a weirdo for nothing!! and the atrocious part is, I LIKE IT! XD

HANGOVER!

2007-09-22T13:16:00.000+08:00

im sooooo sorry for lying that im not drunk when i am obviously super drunk! i like vomitted like dont know how many times! i was lying in the middle of a road. wondering why no car came and run me down!!!!!!GRRRRR and i actually knew where i was , but i dont know how to tell you all haha!

first im so sorry to melissa,lynn,audrey,dom,shawn. for making them worry.im sorry for the nonsense on the phone , i didnt know what i said -.- this teach me a lesson , next time go drink dont bring your phone!(just kidding). hope i wont get to drink again!

and of cause my bros.who they will nv read this blog for me walking sooooooooooooooo far away from them and left my wallet and my shirt in their care =X and they came over scolding me vulgarities and wanted to hit me with the vodka bottle if i dont stand up when i was lying on the playground.

PS:i talk to her on the phone? i didnt even realise. grr

2007-09-21T20:41:00.000+08:00

ok now some pictures of me taken some time ago.
and let me remind all of you out there.DRINKING IS BAD FOR HEALTH.DO NOT DRINK. esp to my right and left arm-LYNN AND AUDREY.the CAL (chao ah lian) and CM (chao minah) do not drink.its BADDDDDDDD.and MONKEY-i didnt know monkey loves TARTAR sauce..

me.with audrey's bag.i think its nice

i told u i look good in this bag!

the CAL with my bag

the ONE AND ONLY SUNFLOWER DAMIEN :)

(:

2007-09-21T17:46:00.000+08:00

the stupid monkeys ( wan li,audrey , lynn ) prolly too busy to update this blog.
well.
today i went buy birthday present for shunwai and jonathan with domenica and shawn.we got them a couple pencil box (: we had lunch after that at the food court and im going out soon for JUDGEMENT DAY!! one of my friend gonna get some sense knock into his head.was told to bring my vodka down. so im bound to get drunk today. night and see ya. (:

sunflower
damien
signing
off

OH! AND I FOUND OUT A EVIL SECRET.GRRRRRRRRR! and i find out something that i should know long ago!!!thanks.

2007-09-18T19:37:00.000+08:00

i stole this picture from wan li's phone.. shhhh! she doesn't know about it.. until.. now.

i think i got possessed or something. staying in school to study even after chem remedial! i'm INSANE!!!! and i'm a loner! bloody hell!! and i love to be one!!! XD

wah i think i looked so handsome.

chao ah lian & minah. my left and right arm.

BYE BYE. LONER GOING OFF TO COMPLETE IONIC EQUILIBRIA TUTORIAL.

PROMOS!

IN 9 DAYS...

2007-09-17T17:55:00.000+08:00

THIS IS MY FIRST BLOG & I'M SO EXCITED!
i must learn how to use blogger from now on..

anyway today in math lecture, i think i very noisy. me, shawn and haravin were fooling around and disturbed lynn & wan li as a result. moreover, i pulled wanli's rubber band uncountable times and i feel very bad now. sorry wan li!

i feel demoralised.
i think i should work harder and look upon audrey, lynn & wan li as example.
DAMIEN WILL PROMOTE!

PROMOS!

P.S. Please feel free to tag me.